I’ve been looking into different Computer Science programs in my area, hoping to find something that’s accessible and that will (maybe) still let me work and make a decent wage. I really don’t know where to start.
There are a few programs that boast a focus on game development, something I’m obviously interested in, but I’m still flip-flopping on whether it’s a good idea or not. Even though I may seem to be a pillar of strength and self-confidence in my posts on this blog, I actually doubt myself a lot. I keep telling myself that I can wade through all this programming stuff on my own, that it’s all online and that I don’t need to pay some exorbitant amount of money (again) just to get a piece of paper that says “You learned stuff.”
But then I try to wade into yet another argument over whether or not beginners should try to learn C# over UnityScript. Or an article on all the steps you need to do to get a decent job in this industry. Or a podcast about how these big developers all started designing websites and text adventures when they were TEN EFFING YEARS OLD. Time to get real: I’m 26 this year and I have a wife and pets to take care of. I have bills. I have a job I need to be able to perform well at. I still need to replace my windshield cause it cracked two winters ago but I keep telling myself it’s fine because if I pay for a new one, I won’t be able to afford to take my lady out on date night. None of these things are going to mesh well with spending twelve hours a day on campus and even more time at home hunched over a textbook and my laptop.
“But still, I could do it.” This is what I keep telling myself. Maybe it’s what’s holding me back.
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